|Thanks to Merit Press for the review copy.|
Ellery's bought the gun, made arrangements for her funeral, and even picked the day. A Wednesday. Everything has fallen into place.
Now all she has to do is die.
When her plans go awry and the gun she was going to kill herself with breaks, she does the one thing she has control over--return it and get a new one. After tormenting the crusty customer service associate by trying to return the gun with the wrong receipt, Ellery gets caught by the security guard who also happens to be someone she knows--the annoyingly perfect Colter Sawyer from her English class.
Colter quickly uncovers what she's hiding and is determined to change her mind. After confessing a closely held secret of his own, he promises not to tell hers. Ellery tries to fight her attraction to him as the shadows of her past cling tight around her, but when she's faced with another tragedy, she must decide whether she can learn to live with what she's done or follow through with her plan to die.
In this book we follow a really hurt character, someone with a really dark past which still suffocates her present. However, Ellery, our main character, is really sarcastic and fun to read.
Though we are brought into a world of pain and absence of hope, we also get to see some strong bonds blossom. First of all, Ellery and her best friend's friendship is a really pure and beautiful one, strong through time and way too tight for Ellery to be able to break it with her suicide attempt. But then, and what I enjoyed the most, Ellery meets Colter and a love-hate relationship is ignited. Though Ellery wants to be left alone and disappear from this world, Colter will not let her fall apart and will risk his own broken heart due to a wrecked past to save her.
One of the things I liked the most about this novel, besides Colter, is how easy-going it actually and surprisingly is. Some flashbacks are thrown in to make it a lot more whole and realistic, which made the plot rythm to be dynamic enough not to get bored. Jumping between two time lines gets us closer to the main character and to what happened to her. We get to fully understand her reasons to end her life at such a young age. We get to connect with her, and that is essential to creat impact on a reader.
Now, what I may not agree with, and what I think is the issue in this book is how suicide is treated. We meet characters with really dark thoughts wanting to end their lives, but we barely see how it must be handled. Some friendships in this novel are exactly the way they shouldn't, since suicidal thoughts are kept a secret and never told to professionals. It is definitely not a book to look up to if you are going through a hard time or a friend of yours is. But, and this needs to be said, no one said this book was a how-to-deal-with-suicide guide, so it is enjoyable as long as it is taken as a fictional story. As I did not walk into the book expecting all the answers to suicide, I was able to really get into it and feel plenty of emotions towards the character.
The writing is on point. The author has a really good writing style, never getting boring and knowing how to keep it interesting and addicting. I will be definitely looking into Erica's bibliography and checking out her future titles.
Teach Me To Forget is a funny, dark and delicate story to read within the weekend and let pages fly.